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Ok yep...listen up. Someone broke into my account....again...so...therefore....i'm considering making this a friends only lj. i don't want to come on one day and find out this person deleted all my lovely friends,so here's how this is going to work.
JUST IN CASE...if you want to be added,remain added,er add me or what not then comment here buckeroos!
FOR ALL YOU WHO DON'T KNOW ME HI! I'm Sara. Yes,yes,yes. I am a sherman oaks pirate, my dream car is a mail truck, i have 5 chihuahuas, I was supposed to be named Ruby-Tuesday, and i was born on halloween. Yea,and i'm terrified of Mr.Clean,Brawny,Oompa Loompas,and Mr.Rodger's puppets. NOW YOU KNOW SOMETHING ABOUT ME! Think i'm 'cool' yet? Hey YOU! Yea,YOU! I wanna be YOUR friend!cha cha cha!
Now hurry and comment so i can add you! you're missing all my friends only entries of my "exciting" life hey hey c'mon now!
<3-The Sara
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[21 Jul 2003|06:19pm] |
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Just to give you guys a heads up....someone broke into my account and tried to change stuff. Someone with the email of hardxcorekid@hotmail.com
Anyone know who that is? Well if you do i'd appreciate it if you'd tell them to stop. I should have known...fucking livejournal is so easy to break into. Whatever the fuck.
Piss.S. i'm starting to make a lot of posts friends only so make sur you're logged in when you read my lj or you may be missing out! Spanks!
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[21 Jul 2003|12:52am] |
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You will live in Shack.
You will drive a Ultra Violet Mail truck.
You will marry Shayne and have 367496 boy kids.
You will be a Pirate in Kentucky.
^You all know you're so fucking jelous! It's ok,it's ok,i am too!
( That.Brandon.Guy.Is.So.Cool. )
I just watched the goonies which is one of my favorite movies of all time.
Since i just found it on dvd,come over and watch it with me while we eat icecream.
I know my bestbud Mel is down! Ah! i love my bffl! ::muah!:: ::assgrab::
Come join us! You know you want to!!!
So now i'm watching Trigun. Some anime. There's this really fuckin awesome looking guy in a longg red jacket with blonde spiked hair and these really cool reflector glasses. I saw an action figure of him at china town. This anime is hilarious. But the guy is really cool. I want his coat. And i want his awesome glasses. Here he is,but not a good example:
His name's Vash the Stampede or something...cool man.
Piss.S. You miss me. I know it and you know it. So give me a fucking call you ass.
How are you sweetheart?
Haven't talked to you in a while
Are you still beautiful sweetheart?
Haven't seen you in a while
Do you miss me sweetheart?
I miss the way things were
How are you doing sweetheart
I fucking miss you like hell
Come back to me dear
Where the fuck did you go
I miss my best friend
Does it fucking show?
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[20 Jul 2003|10:13pm] |
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Today was very uneventful. Oh well. Hm, i wonder how many people on livejournal actually look forward to reading what i have to say. Hmm.
I slept till 5 today. felt good. Woke up and was told i had to help put away groceries. grrr >P-[ Not my idea of fun since i was cranky
And now i'm about to watch Willard which i already know sucks except for the fact that one of the most awesome looking guys and actors is in it. Yea that's right.... Crispin Glover is the fucking shit. Damn that guy is too effin cool.
I found The Goonies dvd that had been missing.YAY!
My mom bought three of my favorite icecreams...chocolate chip cookie dough,rocky road and sherbert.
That made me so fucking ecstatic.
I want to take pictures of things...any requests?Tell me please.
So yea...I have some WONDERFUL new friends. Whoever thought losing a best friend would bring in so many fucking beautiful people. It's amazing. I'm shocked. It still hasn't hit me that i have friends. Hm,i wonder how long this feeling will last. I hope for a while.
So yea yea yea....this summer sometime i'm making it a note to throw a pirate pool party for all my lovlies. Fun fun fun in the sun.Aw yea! I want to go to the beach again... next friday ya guys? Ok? Ok.
Sequoyah, i'm not mad at you. Never was. Ass. i love you.
Serina, i love you!!!
Miles, we need to drive to my secret forest. Make me some cd's. Let's go to the beach.
Shayne, i'm countin the days. Come home soon. =( please
Mel, i love you,fucker. Drop by my house and say hello ass.
TO ALL MY NEW FOUND FRIENDS...::raises glass::...I LOVE YOU ALL TOO FUCKIN MUCH.CHEERS!
Heart- the sara
Piss.Es. If you have an issue with me and care enough to settle it,call me. If you can't call, then i don't see the value in fixing it. The computer fucking sucks.
I'm sorry, it really fucking bugs me when tehre's an issue and that person just ignores me the whole time and doesn't even fucking care enough to call. Great friends,eh?
( This.Should.Sound.Familiar )
( You.Know.Who.You.Are.If.You.Feel.This.Way.Too )
I'm watching the goonies. <3 i fucking love this movie.
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[19 Jul 2003|11:16pm] |
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Wow,i can't believe how much fun i've been having lately. I fucking love meeting all these great new friends. Hah...it's all so new to me.So tonight i hung out with Katey for the first time....awesome awesome,very strange...but hilarious girl. Haha....subway down there sucks. Everyone sucks. We went to clearsound.....SUCKED. So um yea. Now i'm home eating double scoop icecream.....chocolate chip cookie dough and rocky road. FUCKING HEAVEN. yes i'm telling you its better then the hottest lesbian sex any of you could ever have! BE JELOUS! BE VERY JELOUS!
Hung out with Ryan and Brandon(sp)......two very very awesome guys.
So umm...mmhmm...mmhmm....uhhuh..uhhuh...yea...so...ah i lost what i was gunna say....
So....yea hi my name is Sara,my husbands name is Sam...we live in Sherman Oakies..and we sell Socks. Ok..this needs to stop.
Um so yea....now im eating saltines thinking of what i need to write about.
oh oh oh!! Here's pictures of my haircut....i got it trimmed and got bangs.....but it doesn't look any different. It looks like how my hair was before. WHATEVA! FUCK IT!
( My.Haircut.That.Looks.The.Fucking.Same. )
Well yea you guys....so you know that wonderful boy i tol dyou about...Shayne?
yes yes....he's leaving for a week tomorrow. =( i feel sad. <33333
i hope he has fun. i just met that boy and i love him,he fuckin rocks like no other.
i miss ya sweetness.....come back soon. <3 ::muah:: ::bearhug::
goodnight all you people!
<3 -THEE sara
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[17 Jul 2003|11:29pm] |
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omg.i'm sooooo happy right now.I just had the best phone call EVER.
Mel: "So are you ok now"
Me: "Eh..i guess.Still a little down.Cheer me up."
Mel: "Oh yea...haha cuz we're best friends now right? Now we can talk about anything!"
Me: "Hahaha yea"
Mel: "Well,what's on your mind right now?"
Me: "Nobody likes me. I'm serious. You should get away while you can. I scare everyone off."
Mel: "Says who?"
Me: "People...and myself."
Mel: "Well...would it cheer you up if i told you i liked you?"
Me: "Wait...what?"
Mel: "Haha...i shouldn't have told you that."
Me: "Noooo! What?"
Mel: "I like you a lot."
Me: "No you don't"
Mel: "Haha yes i do. How much do you want to bet. You're the most kick ass girl i know."
Me: "You don't want to say that."
Mel: "Yes i do. I know what i'm saying."
Me: "No you don't because you'll regret it. Every guy that likes me i scare off."
Mel: "I think you're fucking awesome,scary or not,and i'm honored that you call me your best friend. I just happen to like you a lot secretly."
Me: "It's not secret anymore!"
Mel: "Haha...um...whoops. Oh well."
Me: "Well...i'm glad you told me. Because I kind of/sort of like you too!"
Mel: "Oh,you just made me so happy. I'm blushing."
Me: "Hahaha me too. Loser. Let's be losers together."
::Sigh:: that just made every little horrible thing in life...feel like heaven.
i.fucking.love.you.mel.
And i don't wanna lose this one. 'm sick of being a bitch and schitzo. I can't help it because it's all chemically and blood caused...but i'm trying my best.
This is a dream come true. For years i've always wanted to date a best friend.
Anyway..... *Attencion Attencion!*(sp)....Me and Serina are hanging out tomorrow so watch out because together we're UNDESTROYABLE!!!!!
Hey Serina, thanks for talking to me and making me feel like i was actually..well...a person.You really made me feel like i knew what i was talking about.Thanks.
heart heart heart heart heart heart heart heart heart heart.
And thanks to Miriam, Miles, and Iron Davy Flint(Jake) for cheerin me up. You guys all actually made me feel.....not-stupid. Great grammar huh?
Especially Davy(Jake)....you are so fucking loved by me. Such a great new friend. Thank you so much. you fucking rock.::bear hug::...and i DONT do hugs.But you deserve one BIG TIME.
and a heart...
<3
i'm feeling better now. Please don't bring me down. Please. It took a few talks to get this high and i don't feel like moping around the house again. So please, if you're just gunna comment withs omething mean,just save it for later. Just not now.Please and thank you.
<3 Sara
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Today fucking sucks.
It's my brother's birthday and i can't even put a smile on my fucking face and i didnt watch him open my present.i just ignored him and now he's mad at me.
I hate being sad becaue it affects everyone around me.
So ya know what....i'll clear something up for everyone....right here right now...
Tyler is right. Hm,sorry if i made him sound like the bad guy. He didn't do anything wrong. Just ask him. It was all me. If you're thinking about being my friend, don't. because i'm fucking paranoid and i have multiple personalities that interrupt eachother all the time.I don't know what else to say. Ok Tyler, here's you're apology. Like i always apologize.I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. Oh no,that just won't do. I'm sincerely sorry,and here, i barfed up some abdominal goodies just to show how sorry i am. Gee,i hope that puts a fake smile on your face even though i very well know it didn't. And just to show you how apologetic i am...here is your wish, Tyler James Smith,i shall no longer be your friend. There,you're set free. You don't have to deal with my bullshit anymore.
Let's all throw a party. Except i'm not invited. But let me know how it goes. This must be quite exciting for you Tyler, so i'm extremely happy for you. And i mean that from the bottom of whatever i could find at my heart. I truely am sorry, because two days ago angry Sara took charge, an another Sara just kicked in. And i'm just now beginning to see what i did wrong. So,yes,i am sorry. But i do wish the best for you in the future.
Have a very,very,very nice life. ::shakes hand:: Well,i'm off. I suppose you can tell people you don't know me now.
Bye everyone.Have a wonderful day.
Cheers
p.s. i know you can't see it,but this really fucking hurts.
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[17 Jul 2003|03:40pm] |
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Yesterday was sad and slow but i put up with it. All my sisters were eating the best pizza right in front of me and it sucked because i can't eat it. I couldn't eat anything due to the fact that i lost my fucking medicine. I hate having stomach problems. I fucking hate it. Along with all the other bullshit,it makes things ten times worse. When someone hates you and you're in your room feeling sorry and the first thing you wanna do is eat icecream because everyone loves icecream and you have to be told "No Sara! You can't eat that! Not till you take your medicine!" Fucking depressing shit...
I've never actually really minded it until now. It gets in the way of everything. Oh well, I guess it's better then having to sleep at the hospital or get my stomach pumped again. Not fun. Anyway...last night we went to rite aid. My family and myself,that is. And there were two bums. One outside of rite aid,one outside of blockbuster. And you know how i love bums. I hate how people pass them by. So i went inside rite aid and bought them both icecream and gave them as much spare change as i could.
You see people....i know you all think i'm horrible but i can be really nice...when it comes to bums. I'm really not as aweful as i seem.
Mel- my mom told me about some show they might put on somewhere up in like west hollywood or something on pirates!!!! She might be able to get tickets because they send all this free bribing stuff to her magazine!!!OH,just imagine! And yea,i want to bring you and i'm buying you one of those little knives with the fancy carvings.They sell em' down there.
But for now...it's all just talk,but i'm crossin my fingers.I.LOVE.YOU!call me because i really need to talk to someone...
Oh,and i wrote a poem about you!read it bitch!
( Mel.The.Little.Boy.Robot. )
Anyway...i hope all of your lives are going just dandy. Hopefully you don't have to deal with the shit i am. I wish for the best for all of you. Um...stay healthy and stay happy.....come over and go swimming.
<3 Sara
p.s. SERINA i tried calling you but the line was always busy! IM me so i can give u my number...we're getting together THIS weekend whether you like it or not. Sorry Charlie... but now arrangments must be forced upon you!!!!We'll have fun don't worry i have surprises up my sleeve...or whatever i'll be wearing..ok yea whatever you get it!
p.s.s. it's about time you people know i'm extremely sensitive. So stop poking me with your sharp objects. Metophorically of course. I'm sorry if you don't understand.
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| + The Blower's Daughter + (Read it very carefully...) |
[17 Jul 2003|12:27am] |
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And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most...of the time
And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her sky
I can't take my eyes off of you. I can't take my eyes off of you.
I can't take my eyes off of you. I can't take my eyes off of you.
I can't take my eyes off of you. I can't take my eyes....
And so it is
Just like you said it should be
We'll both forget the breeze
Most...of the time
And so it is
The colder water
The blower's daughter
The pupil in denial
I can't take my eyes off of you. I can't take my eyes off of you.
I can't take my eyes off of you. I can't take my eyes off of you.
I can't take my eyes off of you. I can't take my eyes....
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"The Blower's Daughter" by Damien Rice
Download it. Listen to it. And i won't have to explain to you how I feel.
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[16 Jul 2003|03:58pm] |
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Oh my lord...
I was feeling all down a few hours ago until I get a phone call...
And guess who?
Mel !!!!! (fuckin sexpot)
I was so surprised...because I've only met him once but we talk online 24/7
We ended up talking for 3 hours!!!!
About pirates...and pirate clothes...and how he knows where to get these cool sword things.
He made me laugh.And i love to laugh.So i needed it badly.And it felt like heaven.
He was so fucking sweet and i told him the story about what happened...
And he made me feel...soooooo ...FUCKING GREAT.
It's the kind of friendship i've been looking for and i so needed it right now.
He was the only person who called to see if i was ok and he barely knows me.
So I told him,and i'm telling you guys:
Mel is my new best friend.
end of story.
I love you Mel. and i soooooo mean it.
And for our new friendship...we need to celebrate.
I'm taking you out. I just don't know where yet.
And i love you and thank you SOOOOOOO MUCH!!!
That is all.
GREAT day.
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I've been up for 4 and a half hours. I had a dream. I don't know where to start, forgive me if i seem like i'm mumbeling, i'm trying to gather my words. Well...I had a nightmare. I haven't slept in three days. Last night when i finally got home I just went to my room and rested my head on my pillow. And my eyes were wide open. I couldn't stop thinking about yesterday. Yesterday was a spit image of a year ago. All of a suden my eyes just snapped shut. That's where it began.
I got stuck in this horrible nightmare. But it wasn't even unreal to me. I was back at the same place. Everything was the same, only...a little different. As much as I've tried to forget it, and have done a pretty good job...I still remember every detail. Fuck having a memory chamber. I could still see how feirce his eyes were from a mile away. His words still peirced me like sharp needles in a voodoo doll.
His hands were still as angry as they ever were. And the hardest part about reliving that moment in this nightmare, would be the struggle. I'll never forget how much i struggled. It's like fighting for air under a pool cover. Never in my life have I been so strong, i think.
I woke up in tears, surprise surprise. I'm frightened, still. It was freezing in my room but my body was and is so disgustingly hot and covered with a nervous sweat. The strange thing was, I was hyperventilating like i was gasping for air...and my heart beat was going at such a fast speed as if I really had been running like i did in the dream.
So, now I sit here. 8 in the morning. I can't go back to sleep. So what do I do?
I'm going to isolate myself from everyone and everything. For those of you who know what happened yesterday...did I lie when I said I have no friends? I rest my case. I am not a liar.
I need to get away. Fuck I have no idea where to go.
Just a quicknote...if you want to talk,call me. If you're that worried,really....than call. I hate the internet, so i will refuse to talk about anything online. I have two new screen names too which i'm failing to mention for good reasons.
If you're still confused by this whole thing,call.That's the only way i'll settle it for you.
I'm tired. I'm scared. I'm hot. I can't breathe. I'm really lost. I'm confused. I'm regretful. I'm worried. I'm beat. And i'm nobody.
Well, I guess I'll stop writing now or else it would be far too long. If you read this, thanks. I know i probably didn't give you the empathy treatment because it's in words, but hopefully you have somewhat of an idea. Sorry to bug you. I need to curl up and die. No.
I need to sleep. But I can't. I wonder how much longer I could put it off until my body is too weak to take it...
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Some of you know about my 'little secret'.
And how it's... well...not so little.
And those of you who know are the only ones who will understand this.
Today i was left alone on ventura.
I've never walked alone on ventura before. I don't know my way.
And let's just say i got to see what that little secret felt like again.
I had the same fear as i did a year ago.
I had the same defense as i did a year ago.
And i had the same tears in my eyes when running away a year ago.
Thanks a lot.
I ended up running barefoot down ventura,catching every single blister,
every single peice of glass in the road, every single scrape.
My feet look fucking tortured.
I ran all the way to Miriam's house and cried to her hysterically while she tried to calm me down.
Today i came to a realization about someone and something
It killed me to think about it.
It fucking killed me to think about losing it.
But everything has become a constant line of repetitiveness and routine
And sometimes, you just can't force a stuffed animal to love you as much as you love them.
And i realized i must come to a conclusion
And this will be,by far,one of the hardest decisions i'll ever have to make
::crosses fingers::
Please don't make me do this...
...Oh, but it must be done.
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Yea...so i stole this from mike.Funny how quickly these things go around.
Fill it out...i'm dying to know the "fill-in-the-blanks." pshhhahaha
I'm also dying to see how many pussy anyonomous's are gunna fill it out with the words: hate,herself,ugly,fuck,and die. Gee! Oh boy, oh boy! Can't wait!
cha cha cha
<3 Sara
I ____ Sara.
Sara is ____.
Sara thinks a lot about _______.
When I think of _________, I think of Sara.
If I were alone in a room with Sara, I would _______.
I think Sara should _____.
I want to ____________ Sara.
If I could describe Sara in a word: _______.
I want Sara to __________ and ___________.
Sara has to ____________.
If ________________ was in Sara's life, he would ____________.
I think Sara can __________________.
Sara _________ me.
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[15 Jul 2003|03:38am] |
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so it's 3:38 and i already know i'm not gunna sleep tonight. Must be that vampire bat that bit me an hour ago. I'll tell you guys if i start craving blood.
Anywho...i'm bored...it's late...and i'm listening to The Cure ::sigh::
these are like my two favourite songs by them. Download them and listen to the lyrics. Just read on...i'm almost POSITIVE you feel/have felt this way about someone.
( Just.Like.Heaven. )
( Love.Song. )
Ok,back to slave work. Download those songs. I highly recommend it.
Goodnight.
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| + Arrr, A Pirate I Was Meant To Be + |
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Hey Hi Hello um yea....
So i'm really excited. Tuesday is gunna be so much fun. I'm taking Tyluh and Seq-coy-mah to China Town!!!! We're getting kung fu shoes and yea. It's gunna be oodles of fun in the sun.
And we'll have tons of pictures to post on these fuckers after....so i hope.
Tyluh and Seq-coy-mah: if you're reading this bring your "swim trunks" incase we go swimming when we get to my house. Unless you'd prefer...nakie like Tommy Pickles in the rugrats.(and we're watching Totorro....To-tor-ro!)
So yea....my room is almost clean.i can't even fucking believe it. It hasn't been clean for 7 years. And i'm finally doing something about it.
So you know what that means.....the minute it's all nice and spunky ::SCHWING!!:: i'm having a 'room warming' party....which means all of you better come.fuckermuckers.
Haircut and dying takes place on wednesday...
Don't even think it. I'd slit my own throat with pleasure before cutting it to my chin.
Once a bastard,always a bastard.
i know,i know..."Sara you're such a sarcastic fuck"...
We KNOW already.
Wow....i've barely slept in the past week. I think i'm a vampire. Just like you said Black Mary. Whoa...i think i could get used to this.
Ok time for me to fly away home. And i wish i had a cold coffin to sleep in. =(
Goodnight everyone.Have a wonderful week and summer. And oh yea. Do stuff with me.
That means like us, Davy Flint. ::raises sword in air::
Argh P-)
( This is for you Tyler )
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HEY! EVERYONE WHO'S READING THIS THAT'S FUCKIN AWESOME....
ADD THESE 3 BITCHES TO YOUR LJ's.
THEY'RE THE FUNNIEST FUCKS AROUND.
Micky(my fag)- blackofspades
Haley(hills)- ignitethefight
Katey- punkdout07
ANY FRIEND OF MINE SHOULD BE A FRIEND OF YOURS YOU SEXPOTS!
MUAH MUAH! now go do it or else i will set a plague upon ye...
yea......i mean it.
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